By Trudi Arnold — I hit a brick wall last week.
The wall was a tangible feeling of exhaustion that included feeling physically beat up and mentally drained. My schedule is horrendous and I have high expectations of myself for how much work I should get done in a day. When I don’t achieve what I expect, I take work home and have no time to read fiction or decompress.
Some days it’s all I can do to get from one place to the next and feel like I’m prepared for what I’m supposed to be doing. One day I completely forgot which client I was meeting; thought it was a client from the other location. Even though I made a quick enough recovery, I felt terrible that I would allow myself to get that bad. The kicker was the evening I had to co-facilitate a group. It was the first group, so I didn’t have much responsibility yet. It took every ounce of my willpower to stay awake, to listen, to pay attention to group members and when I left my internship that night, I knew something had to change.
I went for a massage and went to bed early.
That weekend I decided to do something drastically different and NOT do any work at home. It felt good and by the time Monday rolled around, I had a clearer head. Maybe some boundaries made sense accompanied by some techniques to stay focused and not let myself get overwhelmed.
I teach my clients these techniques all the time. And they leave sessions and come back to the next one telling me that what I recommended helped them a little.
You see, when I hit that wall, the sign on it read: “What do you tell your clients when they hit this wall? Do it.”